How can someone who means so much to you, hurt you so bad?

I looked back on some post and felt emotional ;( I miss those times. I really do. When i look back at it, there were no sad moments. Maybe a few, but nothing compared to what i'm experiencing right now. It really hurts to be unable to turn back time and treasure those moments.

I had somewhat an argument with my close friend. I care about her more than anybody could. And then she betrayed me, forgotten about me and left me. I couldnt bare the pain anymore and so i ended the relationship. She didnt run up to me and apologize. She seems fine without me. I feel crushed like part of me has been taken and thrown away. I just hope i'll be able to get back up on my feet and move on. There are better things out there.